its 2011 already, believe or not.
my year started out depressing. like how i stated on my facebook.
"i should care less, hope less and expect less. with that i wont get disappointed. sigh~"

alot of things has been happening even though its only 8 days ever since 2010 left us. my assignments are all done. thank god. im left with this COMISS presentation that i have to do with my group mates which is on monday. i cant do my part of the project because my mates have not sent theirs to me. its a last minute thing, like always, so we ended up dividing the work load. im unsure what will outcome be, but what i certainly know is that i cant wait to get this presentaion done and over with. my group mates during COMISS are all kind, fun and understanding people. alhamdulillah. not like the group mates i had in Jumpstart during last semester.

its a saturday now. i was sooo stupid that i make you as my first priority when i feel that you're just making me an option. if not i have gone out for a movie date with my rxz friend. then now my rxz friend didnt texted me whether the movie date is confirmed or not but i shall not be paranoid and let him be since i told him that i will most probably going out with you. saturday was the only day that we are able to hang out but then you said you cant go out with me because you doesnt have money. what stupid excuse is that. you dont need money to go out with me you jerk. honestly, i feel that im hoping and expecting too much from you. i've decided to let it go. people use to say if you love somebody let it go if its hard to hold on, but when the person comes back he is meant to be yours. well, i let you go last year, then at the end of last year you came back. that is why i thought we're meant to be. but still, things between us is still not working out. its hard. difficult for me to explain why. you can say i am not understanding but its nothing wrong to hope for somebody to give abit more attention to me since you make it clear that you want us back together. i dont feel appreciated and loved by you. action speaks louder than words dude. i wanted to tell you all these when we met, but my mouth cant find the right words to say it. i really hope you're reading this, if you still remember this website of mine. sigh~ by the look of it, all you care is your friends, your malaysian actresses and your bike. these things are all more important than me. when you texted me, it feels as though you were forced to do so, not because you wanted to or u missed me. am i just your friend, more than that or an absolute stranger to you? oh well, sometimes things doesnt work out the way you want it to be. i cant always cry myself to sleep each time i think about all these. enough is enough! urgggh! i dont know what to expect and what to feel right now.

i just care too much. thats the reason why. pfft!