selamat pagi semua. to the muslim people, have you eaten you sahur meal? well i have. ayam masak kicap with rice for me. sooooooodap! :) so this will be the last sahur i'll be having for this year, well unless i want to pay back my puasa this year. 5 days to pay back. tak curi2 makan okay. ms menses is the reason why.

and yesterday was the last terawih prayers. alhamdulillah there was really a crowd at the mosque during the final day of the prayers. usually before yesterday, the mosque wasnt really that packed with people. i didnt see any familiar a faces there. maybe they are busy preparing for exams or something. i dont know. oh well.

this whole ramadhan, my family and myself didnt even step our feet to geylang. i have yet to try dengdeng. sedih eh seumur hidup tk pernah rasa dengdeng. most people say its nice. haiya.. next year perhaps. we have bought all the necessary things such as raya clothings, decorations, carpets and etc way before the fasting season. to my family, ramadhan is the point of time where we fully commit ourselves to god and gain pahala as many as we can. one way is to solat terawih. ramadhan is the only month that solat terawih can be done. have you ever see a mosque being so full with people in any other months? no right. only in ramadhan that the mosque will be full with people. and talking about wajib and sunat, yes solat terawih hukumnya sunat and not a must-do thing, but our daily 5 prayers that we need to do every day hukumnya wajib but there is still people who neglect it and take this neglection very lightly. not only our daily prayers are wajib, puasa(fasting) is also wajib for all the muslim and muslimah but still there is still a quite number of people who doesnt bother to fast. tahan makan and minum untuk beberape jam tk boleh ke? not only that refrain yourself from saying vulgars words during the fasting period tk bleh ke? susah sangat eh? *shakes head*

sometimes i wonder, arent they afraid to be dump in god's hell fire in the hereafter? is their pahala and good deeds are enough to place them in god's heaven? until now, i am still scared that my good deeds and pahala are not enough to put me with the soleh and solehah people in heaven. im aware in life we sinned and made mistakes. sometimes i always think twice when i wanted to commit a sin. the feeling is really not pleasant. its like you want to do it, but in the back of your mind you know its wrong. and that is when your iman comes about. with a strong iman you have within yourself, syaitan wouldnt have a chance to manipulate your mind and body to do the wrong and sinful things. its mind over matter. i know what i did and i dont find a need to write it here. let it be between me and god. i dont need people to criticize and judge me. tell me.. who doesnt made mistake before? sendri buat, sendri tanggung. i just hope god forgive me for all the sins i've made. :'( never will i want to get myself into those kind of 'thing' and situation ever again. it really feels so sinful. ya allah, please forgive me. :'( astarghfirullahalazim. okay part ni sedih. sigh~ how i wish i can go back in the past and able to change the mistakes i made. unfortunately, in life, there's no such thing as a rewind button.

enough about that.
alhamdulillah, i manage to solat terawih full being it at home or at the mosque well except for the days i have menses of course. everyday i never fail to read the quran after one of my prayers. solat tahajjud after my sahur have been my daily morning routine. insyallah i will continue to do those things even after ramadhan. amin.

so have you people prepared for raya? for me, not really uh. i still have my room to clean and tidy up. well, im done with hanging up the curtains and also changing my bed sheet. i wanted to wash elmo since elmo have been with me ever since i got him in the year 2008. ehhh that means my elmo is already 2 years old! hahaaa. but mum say he is perfectly fine the way he is and no need to wash. awww man. ooh well, if only my elmo can speak, i bet he will be screaming out loud that he wants to be cleaned too. if he say so then i will say back to him, " and when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for awhile. because boy you're amazing, just the way you are." hahaa.. feeling2 jadi bruno mars sekejap, macam paham je eh dayah. nak berbual dgn anak patung yang tentu tak bleh cakap. elmo tu senyum je tau. mate sentiase terbuka. hahahaaaa..


my elmo :) cute kan?

the thought of going to india just ruined my mood for raya. i have from friday onwards until tuesday to celebrate raya. it's sad, so sad. it's a sad, sad sitaution. tau tk tu lagu ape? lagu sorry seems to be the hardest word by elton john. haahaa. sempat eh nyanyi. dayah2. okay back to my post. this coming wednesday is the day that i'll be flying off to india. at 1.35pm, i need to reach the airport terminal 2. it doesnt feel right or the same when i have to go abroad during hari raya. not only that i cant celebrate raya with family and friends, i have to give eating ketupat, rendang and semua yang lauk yang best2 a miss. sedih per.. mum says that by going to india i will learn to be independent and will learn to appreciate what i have right here in singapore. so i shouldnt give this opportunity a miss just because it falls on hari raya. india and singapore are different in their cleanliness, weather, food, surrounding and etc. dear god, hopefully i am able to endure the 1 month stay there. insyaallah amin. oh ya, i have one more wish to ask for. dear god, when i reach india, hopefully i am able to meet eye to eye with my favourite bollywood actor, Shah Rukh Khan! :)





*drools* just look at him. aaahhhhh. hansem banget ini orang. i love all his bollywood movies. recently i've watched his movie called 'My Name Is Khan'. awesome movie! go watch it if you havent. and i like it when he acts with kajol. they look so sweet when they act together. i fell in love with bollywood when i watch both of them acting in the movie Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. alamak itu cerita kalau tengok 100 kali, 100 kali lah nangis. hahaaa!





sweeeet right? :)))

omg bollywood fevers is rushing down my arteries and veins. you know what, i think i shall watch back his movies.

enough about bollywood. i should be sleeping right now. i need to help mum if she need any extra hand in the kitchen and also help with the house chores later on. so toodles!

may god bless you. :)