ps. i miss you.



awesome isnt it as there's always a song that you can relate, to describe how you feel?

thanks to the stupid dream of mine it reminds me of you. i hope this feeling goes away real soon. i dont want to waste my time and effort thinking of that someone who will most likely dont think about me, let alone miss me. i really need to do something to occupy myself at home. sometimes i look up for you at msn, wishing you will online and when you did, you will start the conversation with me. but i know you wouldnt. each time when this mind wanders off aimlessly, it will wanders back to you. and i hate it. its not that i hate you. its just that i hate it when the past comes replaying in the head again and again. macam tape recorder yang rosak gitu. hahaa

no man, no cry. well thats true. i've seen my girls crying because of a man. i've seen myself being so depressed and restless because of a man. and recently, one of my girls cried over a stupid man who doesnt appreciate her. he contacts her when he needs her but gone just like that when he dont. such an asshole. dont you think so? a woman's heart is like glass. its very fragile. once you're able to get a hold of it, please take extra care of it. if not, you may accidentally drop it and that heart will crash into million tiny pieces. all broken.

i do admit i do get jealous when my friend has someone special. seeing them so happy, makes me feel that i do want to have someone special too. but to think of it again, i have to go through the relationship cycle all over again. malas sihh mau layan tu sumue. macam dh tk kuase dh. hahaa.. im done going through all that.

i'll be going to somewhere far from singapore on 15 september. its for school purposes. its a 1 month stay there. hopefully by then, im free from the thoughts of you. i had enough already.

thankfully 1st brother has an skype account. so i will contact my family through skype. nak puaskan hati, video call skali. so my raya will be different this year. i used to go raya with you and your poly friends. we wore grey and i still have that picture. yess.. i know memories.. oh well, dont wish to talk further about this.

i have to go now.
have to get ready to go out before mum starts her nagging.
byebye! :)

You know why it’s hard to be happy? Because you find it hard to let go of things that make you sad.