*phone rings*

cik ati: dayah, ni cik ati. cik dek nak bbual.
cik dek: dayah, nari dayah keluar tak?
me: tak klua uh. nari dah start holiday.
cik dek: kalau tak klua, boleh datang rumah cik tak? jage nenek?
me: (dalam hati dah macam alamak nak jage nenek?!) boleh uh cik dek. tak kisah.
cik dek: agak2 kul brape dayah siap? nanti cik dek ambil sebab petang nanti cik dek kene gi keje. cik ati dengan obek kene hantar maid balek gi agency.
me: pukul 12 lebih boleh uh.
cik dek: okay. nanti cik dek dah sampai bawah blok dayah, cik dek call.
me: ouh okay. bye.

that was what happened to me at 11 in the morning. i was asleep that time before my phone rings. after that phone call, i quickly wake up and had my shower. so much of wanting to stay and laze around at home. i did mention right my relationship with my grandma is not that close. in my heart was like, gosh, whats going to happen later. thankfully mum will be heading to cik dek's house too after she finishes work.

the maid is sick these few days. its not the ordinary sickness. sampai smlm kene hantar jumpe ustaz and the ustaz said there is 'something' inside her that make her feel sick. so we got no other choice but to send her back to the agency as she is too sick to take care of grandma.

so here i am at cik dek's house while grandma is at her room. i just have do what she told me to do. go toilet, i need to help her out. she wants to eat, just bring in the plates as everything has been cooked by my aunt. alhamdulillah, things are going smoothly.

i just love my uncle's house. its very simple and still looks pretty. the air-conditioner in the living room is switched on 24 hours. :) the sofa is soo comfy which can put me to sleep anytime. my uncle has starhub cable which means more varieties of shows to watch. food has been cooked and there's chocolate in the fridge if i want any of it. there's cold drinks in the fridge too. he just turned on his wireless internet connection so that is why i can get access to the internet and blog now. i dont mind staying here though. heheee.. and my uncle's house is at limbang area and i can see the mrt track from the living room. so kind of close to my home. :)

i brought this laptop of mine just in case i feel bored here. i also bring my maths book just in case ade feeling2 nak buat revision. since this holiday is also considered a study break, i shall make full use of it. but for now, i dont feel like doing any revision. so i switch on my webcam, and camwhored. i guess this holiday, this webcam of mine will be my good friend when im bored.

so please scroll futher down if you dont want to see some of my syiok sendiri face.
thankyou very much.













i dont know how long am i going to stay at my cik dek's house. i just have to wait for cik ati and obek to be back home. dad is coming here too later at 5 plus.

and oh my i was just told that i have to continue to take care of nenek after today too since the maid has already been sent back to the agency today. its not yet confirm though. *big sighhhh..* :( tkpelah eh. dapat pahala. do something new for this year ramadhan. malam ni pon dah start terawih. im not sure whether im going to the mosque or not. i shall see later on.

and dear kaum-kaum adam, stop asking for my numbers, can? seriously malas lah nak layan.. pffftttt.. and takmo menggatal okay. such a turn off. irritating to the max. the more you insist, lagi tipis lah your chance to get it. i will give it if i feel like giving it. so dont push your luck. kalau my mood baik, dapat la eh korang my number. kalau mood tak baik, wait long2 lah ye. harap maklum.

someone once said to me, "dont be afraid to love again." this keeps me wonder, how can i if my feelings are numb all over? seriously, i feel that after the last break-up, the numbness feels so thick that i become colder towards any new guys being it in facebook or msn. they are such a pain in the ass, asking numbers like as if asking for 4D numbers except this one is an 8 digit numbers. it irritates the hell out of me.

i do want to get to know more people, but when it comes to guys, my heart just tell me not to have anything to do with them. only god knows why. maybe now its not the time. or maybe i shouldnt waste my time and tears on guys. or maybe i just aint ready yet. entah la eh. i also not sure of myself. i really dont want this numbness feeling get a better hold of me. i need to learn to let go of my past. must i sacrifice my happiness because of the past? i dont think so. everyone deserves to be happy and that includes me. so chin up dayah! look at the brighter side of life. :)

and this piece of article below i get it from the net.
i will love to share this article to every broken-hearted person.


& to semua, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN! :)
siape tak puase, tk boleh raya.
hohohoo..