omg.. i really need to post this.
hahahaaa... i cant stop laughing like one crazy woman here.
i was bored at home and so i browsed through my folders. then i came across a 2007 conversation with you. omg omg omg it was hilarious.. i still cant believe and imagine that we have that conversation in the first place and even said those stuff.

gosh.. what was i thinking back then..
seriously i laugh out loud when i read back that old ancient conversation we had.
cinta monyet katekan.. weird but true.. you used to read my blog but that was ages ago. i dont think you still read now. do you? hmmm.. nahh.. dont think so.

instead of crying because of this memories, im actually laughing it out. well memories wont fade that easily. instead of wasting those tears, might as well laugh it out. it feels much better than crying. behind all those pain and hurt you had in a relationship, there's got to be something to smile about like those funny moments you once had. lets put it this way. breakup is like someone have tried to put a smile on your face. yes they have succeeded in doing so. butttt.. he's isnt the right one to make that smile stay. thats why breakup happen.

and here i am still contacting with you, as a friend just like anyone else. nothing more. we talk when we feels like it. not like the everyday kind of talk. he have his own life and i have mine. so get over it. life still moves on. :)

and i never doubt that he's charming and realllly good with his words. and he can sings. hhehehhee. maybe that why and how we get together in the first place? hahaaa.

ehh i just realised that all the guys that i have dated before ends up back in a friendship. thats good. well except for one. that particular guy aint worth my time because you gave me hell. whatever. dont want to think or even talk about it.

and i guess im feeling better now. okay not i guess. im certain that im feeling way better now. i dont weep or cry or feel heartbroken. i've learn not to put my hopes too high on people so i wont get disappointed easily. as once you put high hopes on someone and it didnt turn out the way you wanted, for sure, you feel depressed, sad and it feels like as though what you hoped and wished for has been taken away from you just like that. life is unpredictable. kite merancang tapi Allah yang menentukan.

sometimes feelings do come back. i'll be lying if i say i have 100% forgotten about those guys who i have once called a boyfriend. i still do keep their photos in my laptop. each one of them has once put a smile on my face. thankyou for that and thankyou for everything. well things just dont work out and things just happen.

after that, i made up my mind not to get into any relationship just yet. and with that, i realised that im better off without them. maybe its too early to say anything. manela tau another few months or years or maybe weeks, hahaha, i'll be with someone. only God knows who, when, how and why him. because everything we experienced in life there's a lesson to learn. its either a lesson to learn on how to love someone, learn to forgive someone, learn to be careful in whatever decision we made as all decisions have their own consequences and etc. so instead of grieving on what had happen in the past, i shall look at it at a positive way. yeah that should be the way.

yes i know, break up, we have to go through cries, pains, hatred and etc. but to think of it, what benefit will i get doing and feeling all this.. buat hidup susah lagi ade sampai mate lebam tu semua sbb bnyak nangis. just think of it this way, God maybe have something or someone better for you. God is fair. when you lose someone, you will get someone better in return. insyallah, god's will. have faith in Him and He will have faith in you. :)

you know what, i dont know why and how am i manage to write all these. it just come out from my mind. well you know what. i think im ready to give a relationship another shot. i bet not any time soon. but time will tell. i may not fall easily for someone. but i'll never know this person will have this charm that melts my heart. awww.. siapakah jejaka itu? oh dimanakah dia, wahai kasihku? hahaha. okay dayah bbual mrepek.

just choose the right one and not because you're lonely. dont love the person wholeheartedly. leave some love for yourself as when the love of your life leave you, you will be left with nothing. now i feel bad for being so cold towards those guys who have been pestering for my numbers. well its not their luck then as i was feeling rather awful about relationship that point of time. as what i know, from friends, it will somehow leads into relationship. the guys i known a few years back never fail to say i like you or i love you when we're just friends. cant blame them though. feelings come uninvitedly and naturally. feelings we have are God's gift because God wants us to love and care for each other.

so lets start mingling around! hahahaa..

okay done. i shall not talk more and rest my case now.
toodles!