before i start my post, i will like to share this video...



sweeet right the song...
feeling2 lagu melayu lah pula.. thanks to aini for playing the song when she came over my house. if only someone dedicates and plays that song to me, cair babe! XD if only je.. haha..



its 10.30am. all alone at home. everyone's out except for me. parents out to work. 1st brother is at his work attachment while 2nd brother is still at tekong. 2nd brother never fails to call home every night and after that he'll call his gf. i hope his gf is coping well as 2 weeks is kind of a long duration for them not to meet. futhermore, im not sure if he comes back home from tekong this coming friday, he have some energy left to meet her. he must be very exhausted there doing trainings and going in and out of the rainforest. pity him..

i have 2 full weeks of holidays. tomorrow, there's a reunion for my sec 5 class and, unfortunately, it crashes with my outings with my friends. both event falls on the same time and day. hmm.. which one should i go? i will really love to meet-up with my old classmates and my former teacher but at the same time, i really love to go out with my group of friends. shall ponder over it and make the decision as soon as possible. and i sucks at making decisions. pfft..

assignments got to be done but still left untouched. not to forget, i've got a project to be completed and done with during this holiday. what is on my mind right now, is to have fun and be stress-free. my brain need a break. i promise i wont do it last minute. hehehehe..

sigh~ how i wish i have a boyfriend right now. not being desperate here. just think about it. do you feel special when you know there is that someone out there who thinks of you everytime they breathe? those feelings that makes you happy and excited each time you get to meet that someone whom you dearly missed so much even if its only for a few days you last met with that person.. talking craps and nonsense during late night calls hoping that you will survive throughout the night because just hearing that person's voice makes you smile.. honestly speaking, i missed those moments. i'll just go with the flow and see what happens in the future. oh well, things happen for a reason and i accept it.even if its hard to swallow everything down in the first place but dayah redha. i aint that revengeful type. if i were, it will not be for long. its just me. so even if it hurts the shit out of me, i just pray to God to calm my soul and mind. insyallah, i will feel better.

and i cant believed what i did yesterday night or should i say in the morning at around 2am.. i was soo excited and overjoyed when i video called with this guy whom i knew a few years back. somehow it didnt work out due to a small funny arguments between us, so we lose contact after that. then all of a sudden we are video calling. weird right? i've never met him before because everytime we want to meet there's always problems along the way. so this video calling is somehow i see him 'live' for the very first time. hansem banget itu orang. (: he sang and played the guitar. omg. suare sedap plak tu. *screams out loud* hahaha. my face maintained but i can feel my heart's melting. thats my soft spot sey when somebody does that. XD. we're still friends after that small funny incident but not as close as before. when i think about it again, its kind of funny though on the process how we know each other. zaman friendster dok. haha! i just read my old posts and i cant stop laughing. we didnt dare to open that topic again. its the past. so why bother? right?

anyways, click on this website. if you have any questions to ask, feel free to do so. i know that not many people read my blog. but nvm, i just do it for the fun of it. click on the 'extras' tab on my blog. there you can just ask the question without going to the website. i'll answer as honestly as possible.

so i shall stop here for now. (:

I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
- Unbelievable by Craig David