counting down to 21st november
its less than 24 hours from now
whats so special about tomorrow..

on the 21st of august, i've made a huge decision in my life. something that really changed my life. i will always be looking forward to 21st of every month to remind me how happy i am being able take one step forward after all the shits i've gone through in the past. but sadly for now, i just hope that 21st dont ever existed.

whenever i'm all alone at home as the others has gone out either to work or school, flashback reappear uninvitedly. i can just cry on the spot. mum did asked me whats with the swollen eyes when i woke up from bed. i just shoke my head and said everything's fine, dont worry about me, at the same time, trying to hold those tears back. i know i can be sensitive at times especially things that leave an impact on me.

i do missed those times. and more hurtful, i missed that someone very much. but then, i wont be hoping too much as i dont want to end up hurting myself even more.

as stated its gonna be 3 months tomorrow. i never regret though even if just a short period of time. bittersweet moments i've been going through will always be kept as memories locked inside this heart.

in life, you can never run away from problems. there's got to be obstacle that try to ruin or prevent you from getting what you really hope for. the people or things around us, myself, you or anything can be the obstacle itself. but its all about believing in yourself. no matter what circumstances or obstacle you going through being it a big matter or the slightest one, we need to believe in ourselves that we can overcome the problem and find a solution; not by letting the problem take advantage of you and being troubled with the burden alone. we ought to toughen up our spirit and never give up. talk to someone you trust. at least it lessen your burden that you've been carrying it all alone when now you have someone to share it with. you'll feel much better.(: